Fatnat!

ca2

2012-02-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

scared.
pray.

cny

2012-01-22T00:44:00.003+08:00

living out our dreams,
we're all right where we should be.

CNY is coming and all I can think of is drug names and diseases.
and possibly about how I should be thankful for a place in Singapore
with friends and family
studying to become a doctor.

happy chinese new year.

conferencing

2012-01-17T06:03:00.000+08:00

conferences are tiring
staying awake is tiring
damn!
fun
study please.

hard to understand

2012-01-12T22:58:00.001+08:00

truly hard to understand.
why ah.

wicked

2012-01-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

I THINK I'LL TRY DEFYING GRAVITY
wicked is wicked.
breather
emerald city
back to the real world ):

what?!

2012-01-09T04:12:00.001+08:00

goodness what was that.
awkward turtle haha.
no time.
half time.
some time please?

night shooting

2012-01-07T04:10:00.001+08:00

a week, a mountain of work.
a week, what's going on.
a week, is it working.
a week, will it be the same again?

antidote

2012-01-05T04:15:00.000+08:00

antidote
SHM
beta blockers
trying to make each day a good one

1855, 1901

2012-01-04T01:32:00.001+08:00

1855, 1901.
a lot of things to get over
making sense out of very little
guts

got your work cut out for you

2012-01-02T15:33:00.001+08:00

got your work cut out for you.

2011

2012-01-01T02:24:00.003+08:00

this feels really unfamiliar. hasn't felt like very long since i've been here, but it's been a little over 4 months, one CA, a few cycles, a camera, a church production, lots of 9gag and a very long time since m1 ended.

This comes here simply because it's convenient. I don't have a habit of journalling on pen and paper, and the journal usually misplaces itself after a while. But I suppose it's good to end off the year thinking about what happened.

I thought 2011 was going to be big:
pros, holidays, trips, musicals, concerts.
damn I was right.

In a way, I am thankful for this blog. whatever I don't really remember usually ends up in here, one way or another. despite the vague descriptions, having an idea of what happened is still a good thing to know.

friends come and friends go,
things happen, people say things. many things.
but true friends you can be sure of
though shit does happen some times haha.
2011 was a good year for that;
hope it stays that way.
more people coming in to uni next year,
this is going to be fun.

music hasn't changed much.
amazingly, the top 2 most played songs in my library are songs from '10: 1901 and One.
2011 was the year for nostalgic music; favourite bands releasing new songs and all.
I wonder what 2012 will be like.

what do I want out of 2012? resolutions here.

to keep close in my walk with God (something that isn't easy to follow up, admittedly)
to study hard without distractions
to be able to take time to take good photos
to kick old habits
to know what I want and to go for it. because right now, I really, don't know.

just a recap of 2011 so I know what happened.

January: Penang. MBS. lost phone.
February: start doing Flag. CNY. serious baking because we had time.
March: 400th blog post. CA3. get back phone.
April: USS. overnight cycling. studying. period.
May: PROS. Australia.
June: Australia, Malaysia, Mongolia
July: What july? oh. flag. baking. alma mater matters.
August: school starts again. rotaract.
September: a month by any other name
October: PHS.
Novermber: CA2. Camera. playhouse begins
December: playhouse. Playing God. Street Photography. 117km.

I now know why I blog and take photographs. to be able to capture a moment in prose or picture; that is precious to me.

2011 was a good year.
to 2012, may God guide the way.
Auspicium Melioris Aevi.
just kidding.

):

2011-08-27T01:57:00.001+08:00

give me everything

2011-08-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

give me everything tonight
give me more time.

m2.

2011-08-15T02:14:00.003+08:00

counting all different ideas drifting away
school starting
priorities and ideas everywhere
OPPORTUNITIES
new people
new subjects
sport
potential
friends - past present and always.

I will last this year
and it will be awesome.

flag is over

2011-08-06T19:13:00.002+08:00

after flag
we all need a break.
thank you God.

semiblindness

2011-07-22T12:14:00.002+08:00

denial
anger
bargaining
depression
resignation

not for this.
thank you.

god

2011-07-12T01:05:00.000+08:00

God will make a way
when there seems to be no way.
now for another day.

tired

2011-07-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

didn't know fatigue was such a pain.
need sleep. now.
flag you need to cut me some slack.

flag.

2011-07-02T21:19:00.001+08:00

a thousand times I've failed, still your mercy remains
and should I stumble again, I'm caught in your grace.

God I know I can't do this alone

consumed holidays

2011-06-29T02:55:00.002+08:00

after australia
malaysia
mongolia

I have realized there is no place I would rather be but in Singapore
Oh, if only the weather was a little better though.
And the good food a little more accessible.
And there was a little more time to do things.

to be sure, it was fun being overseas.

one liners

2011-06-03T23:57:00.002+08:00

one line for each day of each holiday.

Day1: shopping for a party of 10 is difficult.
Day2: one day I will own a pet seal.
Day3: leftovers can look good when covered in cheese.
Day4: excess and extravagant shopping works best in supermarkets.
Day5: in australia, you spend more money buying bigger clothes that don't fit.
Day6: lethal weapon works better as a movie than as a ride.
Day7: a pet penguin would be pretty sweet too.
Day8: 900 stores in one day.
Day9: singapore deserves softer beach sand and better seafood.
Day10: 120 metres of freefall in dreamworld.
Day11: discovering how small hotel rooms can get.
Day12: qantas can't get names right and has terrible customer service.
Day13: home is where we truly belong.

I still need to eat bak chor mee.

2 more holidays, hopefully.

studying.

2011-05-13T01:43:00.000+08:00

thankfully, I have friends to keep me sane.

doubt

2011-05-11T23:06:00.003+08:00

when something shakes you to the core
you gotta stand up and face it head on.
damn it I hate exams.

scared.

2011-05-07T03:21:00.002+08:00

the wind blows through your hair
as you're walking people stare
up the block
and down the street
to North Kings highway

and there's a beating in my chest
and it's seeming to suggest
that before this day is through
it might go my way

so I sit back in my seat
I scribble down something that's sweet
about a boy; a girl
and endless stretch of scenery

'cause it's like falling to your knees
before a stranger on the street
I did it just the other day
you should have seen me

oh and I wanna remember this night
and how my words never came out right
it's just my patience that keeps me alive
just like all those pretty lights
just like all those pretty lights in the sky.

I am scared like mad now.

medical life

2011-05-06T02:45:00.001+08:00

this is your life
are you who you want to be

this is your life
is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger
and you had everything to lose

things you hold on to as the world spins
and your brain crumbles

pros

2011-05-01T03:14:00.002+08:00

since I did this for ca2.
10 days to pros.
19 days to australia.
tioman
mongolia
FLAG
friends
come on this had better be worth it.

I should be studying

2011-04-22T03:16:00.001+08:00

deadmau5
superbrothers
and a whole lot of
I SHOULD BE STUDYING.

one academic year

2011-04-20T03:07:00.002+08:00

just like that, m1 is gone.
I want to think about it,
but it's 3am in the morning and I really should
sleep or study.

medicamp was an eon ago.
never thought we would survive 3CAs
only to meet pros.
the people here are crazy hardworking;
a work ethic everyone has to get used to
having fun, playing hard, baking hard,
studying harder
can't exactly count how many new people I've met this year
but most of them are awesome.
it's hard to find someone in medicine who isn't,
by the way.

but since m1 is over,
no more prof raj for anatomy, embryology, histology and awesome
no more prof hooi for physiology
no more prof sit for biochem (hahahaha)

study time for pros.
can't wait for holidays to FINALLY ARRIVE ALREADY.

goodbye fb

2011-04-18T02:48:00.000+08:00

giving up facebook for pros.
goodbye world.

pros

2011-04-14T03:16:00.001+08:00

As pros draw nearer,
I come to realize more and more
that strength does not come from my own effort
but from you, Lord.

TGIT

2011-03-31T23:45:00.001+08:00

big picture, big picture
targets in life
who do you want to be
who is it
schoolnami
5 weeks to pros
thank god the weekend is here.

last year, this year

2011-03-24T15:15:00.002+08:00

last year: nothing to do, high kneel

this year: nothing to do, study.

sigh.

time

2011-03-14T01:12:00.001+08:00

retail.
NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND NICE THINGS.
bah.
turning to God in crisis
and in good times too.

CA3

2011-03-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

opened QT book, today's devotion was "testing reveals your faith".
oh dear.
wonder how ca3 will go.

A level results and ethics

2011-03-05T02:49:00.002+08:00

A level results were released today.
funny how a year ago field camp was just 2 days away.
and now I prepare to enter the field camp of physiology and anatomy.

different people get different results;
we come from a mostly sheltered environment
which, in most respects, presents only a sliver of society.
getting As is of paramount importance to us.
the same cannot be said for others.
you identify people who receive their results by the brightsparks bag that they get.
walking around, I probably saw people from 5 or 6 JCs
covering a good mix of schools.
what they scored I do not know;
what they aim for I do not know.
yet I always wonder
if life would be any different if I didn't go down the path I did.
army? university?
and I thank God for the path he has given me

but meanwhile, ethics was a mess.
pointed discussion, rebuttal, and doing things against one's own will.
perhaps the importance in finding what you believe in
and holding strong to that
will keep you in good stead
and keep you accountable to yourself.

stress

2011-03-02T23:45:00.000+08:00

stress causes gastric ulcers
clearly that isn't important
when an exam is coming.
sigh.

400th post

2011-03-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

400.
milestones.
some of them lead you closer to exams
some of them lead you closer to fun
some of them lead you closer to others
funny.

peace and grace

2011-02-28T01:55:00.003+08:00

invading all my weakess
you wrapped me up in grace
the worse of me succeeded
by the best of you

and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

truly experienced that today.

holidays

2011-02-18T04:13:00.002+08:00

happy holidays!
from all of us here at anatomy, physiology, biochemistry, histology and ethics.
hoho.

in time

2011-02-16T02:01:00.002+08:00

quick reminder to self.
there are better ways to waste time.
in pursuit of things.
that are worthwhile.

faith

2011-02-13T17:58:00.002+08:00

now faith is being sure of what we hope for,
and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

I sometimes wish everything was succinct and easy to understand.

on the corner of main street
just trying to keep it in line

primary school

2011-02-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

those were good days
where nothing really mattered
and everyone had fun
but we still have fun now.
primary school.

chocolate

2011-02-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

baking
mixing
stirring
folding
cutting
eating
yes.

pursuit

2011-02-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

the year is passing quickly.
had an interesting talk with jiwei about...
stuff.
it's strange how everything
can be reduced to
preparation.
and wanting to get something.
the pursuit of happiness?

thank

2011-02-09T01:37:00.001+08:00

thank god for friends.
thank god for keeping awake
thank god for good times.
thank god for what is
and for what will be.

recruitment

2011-02-08T02:47:00.001+08:00

finding the real meaning behind it all
money, beneficiaries,
and what?

chinese new year and busyness

2011-02-05T02:16:00.001+08:00

business
scripts.
flag.
things come one thing at a time
and it's still chinese new year.
happy new year, everyone.

why

2011-02-02T01:44:00.001+08:00

love, hate and apathy.

I don't want it to end that way;
does it take two hands to clap?

confusd

2011-02-01T01:26:00.002+08:00

seriously,
what is going on
and why is it happening.
this confusion. is irritating.

ggballs

2011-01-30T02:25:00.001+08:00

haha ggballs
not a good term to use, but a fun one.
a long year ahead.

a week and a bit

2011-01-29T13:17:00.001+08:00

sometimes, rhetorical questions are the most dangerous ones because you think you know the answer.

familiarity in routine
supper
QT

biochem blues

2011-01-27T02:17:00.001+08:00

biochemistry.
hours.
tiring.
coherence is difficult when everything in your head is an acronym.

2011-01-25T10:01:00.001+08:00

priorities and plans.

mondays

2011-01-24T18:56:00.001+08:00

garfield hates mondays.
why can't we hate mondays too.
slow start to a good week.

fridays

2011-01-21T22:22:00.002+08:00

counting all different ideas drifting away
anat, physio, complicated now the timetable's printed out.

life through tinted lenses
adorable in its fragility

ghost

2011-01-18T18:26:00.004+08:00

all my life I've been running
but now I'm holding on to your ghost
and all my days were spent spinning
tyres turning to black smoke

and i remember shots rang out
glass breaks and I take
every dime over the counter
there I saw
nickel-plated eyes
'cause they never hide
never lie
and I

tonight I cool you down
I cool you down like I know I should
tonight I cool you down
I cool you down
you look like a ghost

drop the suitcase
I told you,
you look like a ghost
I just forget all these dreams and problems
cash your check and I ju-ju-ju-ju-ju-just

shots rang out
glass breaks and I take
every dime over the counter
there I saw
nickel-plated eyes
'cause they never hide
never lie
and I
ghost

I never told you to run
tell you to stop
tell you to fold
never to come down
I never did know
never did say I never

tonight I cool you down
I cool you down like I know I should
tonight I cool you down
I cool you down
you look like a ghost

scribbling songs and studying
makes you write many things wrongly.

floorball and skins

2011-01-16T20:26:00.001+08:00

cardio.
inertia.

sunday mornings.

2011-01-16T01:19:00.000+08:00

hello, good morning, how'd you do?
what makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new

switchfoot during homework

sunday morning rain is falling.
probably going to be like that for a long time ):

moving along

2011-01-14T20:59:00.001+08:00

cannot get over this.
it's been a while, it's been a long time.
why?

losing things

2011-01-12T20:53:00.001+08:00

irritated.
need to study.

the perfect words never crossed my mind
'coz there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me screaming out
but the sound was trapped deep in me

2011-01-10T15:12:00.000+08:00

that made me smile
it means a lot.

school starts

2011-01-10T01:35:00.001+08:00

second half of a long time,
of a lifetime.

back to school. exciting.

shit.

2011-01-06T01:51:00.001+08:00

everything happens at the same time.
what now?!?!
okay priorities are quite blurred.

2011

2010-12-30T02:48:00.002+08:00

101 for 2010.

1. this has been a massive year.

discovering bands
discovering music
meeting people
studying, studying, studying
shellscrape (1!)
fieldcamps
going places
doing stupid things

2. nothing's really changed, has it?

in some ways, not for others
some that mean quite a bit, though. no shit.

3. 2011 is going to be insane.
musical
holiday
trips
firstmegaexamsincealevels

every year always seems insane before it happens; last year everything was about NS.
but we always make it through fine,
and we become a better person in the process.

4. 2010 was a good year

we reminisce, for the smallest things strike us the most.

music

2010-12-28T00:13:00.003+08:00

you tried so hard to be someone that you forget who you are

work it harder make it better do it faster makes us stronger

somethings happened today I would probably never think of doing.

ate very little at a buffet.
got a m______
watched little fockers.

all these things interesting questions in my head
of fun.

conflict of interests

2010-12-26T22:29:00.002+08:00

back again after a long time.

musicals and trips
decision decision.

things are slightly confusing now.

cambodia

2010-12-15T02:13:00.003+08:00

back again to where it all began
MPCH2!

and we're still waiting for the snow to fall
a song to light the darkest night
and guide me from afar

excited.
of what is and will be.

soon

2010-12-14T01:01:00.002+08:00

threadless :D
soon
PCH
soon

haikus are nice things
inspiration fails sometimes
nothing in the mind.

it's twenty seconds to the last call

over

2010-12-11T22:21:00.003+08:00

done for the year.
half a year to m2
the thought tingles.

i gotta sing and i dance
when i glance...

acapella.

three

2010-12-07T17:24:00.002+08:00

three more days to ca2.
gosh that's not very long from now

here we are now with the falling sky and the rain
we're awakening

sunday night

2010-12-06T02:51:00.000+08:00

I like you, but I don't want it to end the wrong way

finished

2010-12-02T22:20:00.003+08:00

it is a sudden realization
that no amount of studying
will prepare you for it
that makes you scared.

this very obviously refers to CA2.

a brief break from everything visceral.

aye

2010-12-01T20:02:00.002+08:00

aye okay
start counting down to CA2

happy birthday to me!

2010-11-29T02:37:00.003+08:00

familiar friendly
decisions and good times.
19 is a good year
to take big steps
in more ways than one

if i'm smart then I'll run away
but i'm not so I guess I'll stay
heaven forbid
I'll take my chance on a beautiful stranger

good memories

2010-11-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

someday you will find me
caught beneath the landslide
of a champagne supernova in the sky

it's been ages since I first heard that song, what, 11 years ago. And it never fails to make me reminisce good memories. of listening to it, playing it, studying with it and so on.

it's true, really, music brings back good memories.
hurricane on repeat while reading up on sulfonamide and all that jazz.
clockwatching when I wasted my life (or lack thereof) on maplestory.
can't get you out of my head in perth
read my mind for the army and everything in between
given up before cross country even started

all the crazy shit i did tonight
those would be the best memories
everytime.

a yes

2010-11-24T02:26:00.001+08:00

everything starts with a single 'yes'
ramifications unknown
implications disregarded
in simple faith leaping into things.
life should be like that sometimes.

school starts again

2010-11-21T03:01:00.001+08:00

saw there was one for everyday.
revision is a lengthy thing.

a rush of blood to the head

2010-11-18T02:22:00.001+08:00

renaissance of the boybands.
giving up on the borderlands.

dreams

2010-11-11T00:14:00.004+08:00

the concept of a dream
"you'll do it, even if I never had the chance to do so"
pass it on.

here we go
come with me
there's a world out there that we should see
take a chance
close your eyes
with you right here I'm a rocketeer

fly

bursary

2010-11-10T01:53:00.002+08:00

homg zomg

ekki-ekki-ekki-ekki-PTANG zoom-boing Z'nourrwingmm... ni

carpe diem

2010-11-09T00:36:00.003+08:00

so,
if you've sat down or if you're right at the back, this would be a great point for you to start singing with us, you know. 'cos we're not gonna be in this speck of the woods for quite a while. so you might as well sing as loud as you can now aye.

carpe diem
come on

a long holiday

2010-11-08T01:06:00.003+08:00

Half way around the world
lies the one thing that you want
Buried in the ground,
hundreds of miles down
The first thing that arises in your mind
when you awake
Is bending you 'til you break,
let me hold you now

listening to the fray is fun

today you learn that standards vary greatly
and ginko nut is bitter.

school weeks are short

2010-11-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

When I counted up my demons
Saw there was one for every day
With the good ones on my shoulders
I drove the other ones away

So if you ever feel neglected
And if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
Hoping that everything's not lost

I love this song.

something about rousing choruses
something about heartrending riffs
something about music.

pbp fun

2010-10-27T21:23:00.003+08:00

because I realize: there's no where else to put this down that I will remember.

PBP
ultrasound
anterior/posterior cerebral arteries
collateral circulation
plaque + dilation
hyperventilation
EEG
--
nerve conduction
latency
carpel tunnel syndrome
ulnar nerve entrapment
--
patent foramen ovale
ultrasound
interatrial septum
congenital defects
right ventricle, left ventricle
tricuspid valve (right!)
pressure differences
5, 5x2, 5^2, 5^3 = systolic
air embolus: 30ml
KCl
cell death
tiny canulas
"don't quote me on this" hahaha

for me to remember if I visit this in the future
so I can have a good laugh

phoenix on a late night

2010-10-26T02:17:00.003+08:00

countin' all different ideas driftin' away
past and present,
they don't matter now the future's sorted out
watch you moving in elliptical patterns
think it's not what you say
what you say is way too complicated
for a minute thought i couldn't tell
how to fall out

phoenix on a late night.

week

2010-10-25T02:58:00.003+08:00

PHS was an exciting experience
never thought I would prick so many people in the space of 3 hours.
talking to the people showed us
that exteriors are deceiving

but fun!
happy birthday grandma

CA1

2010-10-19T00:06:00.001+08:00

destroy one CA, and another 100 line up in its place.
FML, but we enjoy life day by day.

audience of one

2010-10-16T04:34:00.001+08:00

I brought down the sky for you but all you did was shrug
You gave my emptiness away

But you ran away
Now all my friends are gone
Maybe we’ve outgrown all the things that we once loved
Run away
But what are we running from?
A show of hands from those in this audience of one
Where have they gone?

I NEED to get distracted by work. and not by others

it was nice

2010-10-09T04:06:00.001+08:00

it was nice talking like that
why isn't life like that sometimes?

get outta my way

2010-10-06T02:04:00.002+08:00

a happy life means
you never have to worry
about being sad

leave you, move on
to a perfect stranger
you talk, I walk
wanna feel the danger

2 month countdown

2010-10-04T02:07:00.002+08:00

this is magnificent
U2 makes the most stirring songs.

bag this
you packers

CA1 in 2 weeks

the lower limb

2010-09-28T02:55:00.001+08:00

there are many words i could use to describe the lower limb
pity I don't use many of those words in daily conversation.
life would be much more colourful that way

isn't everyone's saying that
what can you do about it?

food at nights

2010-09-23T04:37:00.001+08:00

one day I will have a food blog.
til then I must stop reading them at night
and concentrate on my work instead.

lunch munch

2010-09-21T02:50:00.002+08:00

light up
meet up
catch up
...suit up?

tempt

recess week meeting up

2010-09-20T10:57:00.003+08:00

recess week!

and I'm not going to take it back
oh I'm not gonna say I don't mean that
what's the target that i'm aiming at
and i'm not singing on my own

i'm not going to stand and wait
not gonna leave it until it's much to late
on the platform we're gonna shout today
don't forget you're not alone

anti-fundamentalism and christmas.
a spark; a catalyst; an idea
good things come out of brainstorms

you are the only exception

2010-09-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

you are the only exception.

a placeholder for something greater.

catchup and.

2010-09-12T03:02:00.002+08:00

probably a final meeting with the class before we all disappear into universityland.
sometimes you just miss studying
amid the ever mounting pressure before the As
since paradise city is your pot of gold
at the end of the last paper.

if so, what can i say?
pericondyle.
pishposh.

5 long weeks

2010-09-10T22:55:00.003+08:00

mugging and ice cream
and life is a vicious routine.
a chore, but predictability
keeps us all in check.

lessons.

2010-09-02T01:49:00.003+08:00

I learn something everyday.

bible study gets harder as you get older.
seriously. from jonah and the whale to ephesians!?!

statistical terms don't have mandarin equivalents.
apparently chi-squared in english is still chi-squared in mandarin.

dental students have far longer hours than we do.
6 hours of lectures a day is insane.

anatomy is getting harder.
discovered the axillary nerve today.

but God loves all of us alot,
and he has blessings for us stored in heaven.
that I can live with.

anatomy

2010-08-31T01:12:00.002+08:00

anatomy is like a thunderstorm:
a deluge of technicality
with flashes of common sense
and the following sigh of understanding tells us
how far we are from completion.

haiyo.